We've been having rolling blackouts almost every night, and because I can't seem to get my act together and do my illustrations during the day, I haven't had the will or energy to do them when the power finally comes back on. Good thing I am not doing a 30 Consecutive Days of Donkeys Challenge. :P
Tonight I decided to sketch by the light of a headlamp. The electricity came back just now, at 10 p.m., and I don't feel like doing another version.
Donkey, charcoal
Tonight I decided to sketch by the light of a headlamp. The electricity came back just now, at 10 p.m., and I don't feel like doing another version.
Donkey, charcoal
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This guy is very sweet and looks almost more watercolor-like than charcoal like. I like his gentle look.
Alas, I need to head to bed. But I wanted to say that I'll answer this more fully tomorrow. *hugs*
The tiredness plays a part in my low morale, I know, but I just haven't felt that chipper lately because I feel like a slouchy slob in terms of Getting Stuff Done. While I should be happy that I've set myself a challenge and am rising to it, I dwell instead of all the other stuff that I Need. To. Get. Done. When I think about other people who have more than one kid and a full time job (outside of the home) who still get their house stuff AND creative stuff done, I feel like such a loser.
Of course, I tell myself that comparison games or guilt games do not serve anyone, but I just can't kick the stress of it. I'm trying, though. The best remedy is to keep doing. I think. :P
I know you've lived all over, so you've probably experienced this--but being in a new place can make you vulnerable to new ailments, and maybe this grumbling physical malaise is your body strong enough to not let you succumb fully ... but not let you be better, either. But that's not all: you're also in a new place emotionally--could it be that you're lonely? Or, maybe not lonely, but isolated?
... And the stress. If you can think of some thing that you're always berating yourself to get done, but that you have a hard time doing, maybe because it's tedious--find that thing, and don't do it anymore! I have given up on bunches of things that people "should" do, because I just couldn't do them and everything else. Some of them I re-picked up later. Others, not.
... But I'll stop with advice, because advice just sucks sometimes. Maybe most times. Mainly what I want to say is, I hate that you're feeling low, both physically and emotionally. I wish we were actual neighbors IRL :-\